Living with an eating disorder whatever your weight....no one can see whats going on in your head
I've not done a blog post for ages and just struggling, would say a bit at moment but actually it's alot as usual. What people don't get is anorexia isn't when you can see your bones it's a mindset long before, then entrenched in you that burdens you forever. It makes you feel guilty about eating anything, wanting to lose weight to feel you are achieving something when you feel you can't achieve anything else, when you need to distract yourself from how bad you feel about yourself. For me bulimia comes in when I have to give in to eating then often end up eating too much. I used to plan eating so I would only eat if I could be sick to deal with the guilt of eating I wasn't sick because I had eaten too much for a normal person just felt guilty about eating anything and I still have that battle daily. I am rarely sick now but avoid eating some days then try get back on track (compensating for bingeing or eating by fasting or over exercise is still eating diso