Feeling positive, moving forward with support
Thought would write an update blogg post whilst things are looking really positive. 8 years ago, back in 2014 I stopped working for what I thought would be a few months to get on top of my mental health, from 2012 I had been having regular mental health crises ending up in hospital with self harm and suicide attempts, driven by an eating disorder, a fear of failure and social anxiety and generally not feeling good enough or deserving to be alive. I was working towards being a mental health nurse, despite my own mental health problems I was a good carer and thought being a nurse I could justify deserving to be alive (an irrational thought) but I love supporting other people and wanted to be able to make a difference as a nurse being able to empathise with my patients because of my own experiences and my work experience too. But although I got accepted to do my mental health nursing at uni my own self destructive thoughts were getting worse, I couldn't have eating disorders therap