Life is a journey not a destination so .....my story isn't over yet;...me

 Having had friends struggling with their mental health recently, i'm not always in a position to be of much help due to my own struggles apart from to try and empathise and advocate that there is no shame in admitting your struggling.  I was always open about my mental health including at work but in alot of ways I had no choice as I have bad self harm scars which are visible so I would rather people know about them from me then be gossiping behind my back and putting their own judgement on it. (even if wear long sleeves there are times they ride up especially as a carer when washing someone or washing pots etc.) Also as I struggled to get help for my eating disorders for a long time because of there not been specialist services and not meeting the criteria due to not being severe enough then classed as too complex once was self harming etc. the only way services change and evolve is by listening to service users. I worked as a support worker in mental health and there should be n

 I say my diet out of the window but I did lose 2 and a half stone, the first stone was whilst having eating disorder therapy for bulimia, trying to stick to 3 meals 3 snacks but with some eating disorder behaviour, then I had 11 weeks where I almost totally stuck to a meal replacement 1200 calorie diet then my mental health took a nose dive and I was feeling really low and bulimia took over so I had a couple of weeks off the diet but haven't been able to consistently stick to diet again since even though I wanted to although my weight has had times its still gone down I'm not doing anything consistently to keep it going down(apart from dancing at choir lol....feels like a workout in itself). I was aiming to fit into a ball dress I have for our choir Christmas ball but then was thinking I'm sure no one else will care what size I am or the dress I'm wearing even though i do and was a good excuse to get a new dress (good job I have some more shifts coming up at work). Lat