Life is a journey not a destination so .....my story isn't over yet;...me

I haven't written a blog post for a while so felt like writing one. I had a bit of a bad day yesterday and sometimes when were feeling down we can forget all the good we have going on in our lives. I still get triggered by thinking about things from my past and the way some people have treated me especially when I was at school and college and got bullied I think because I was quiet and sensitive so an easy target so I always felt I didn't fit in and often the times I did have friends I had ones who used me when they had no one better and would arrange to meet me then not turn up or cancel last minute as they arranged with someone else or forgot then I would go home crying on the bus, thinking what was wrong with me. ( I will admit there was a time when I was a bit older I let friends down when I kept falling asleep and feeling ill because of my eating disorders).  I now have a couple of good friends I've had for my adult life, but they either don't live local and / or ...

 I write my blog to record my journey and "tell my story" . I'm often told I shouldn't be open on Facebook etc. but I feel at my worst times with my mental health I was very open in often a negative way ( because I was very mentally unwell at the time) but I now share my journey and the positives and hopefully coming out the other side so to speak and I'm not ashamed of my mental health problems anymore than I am physical health problems, I want to raise awareness and help break the stigma and hopefully give hope to others who have been where I have been. I have been left with the scars of the last few years and physical health problems as a consequence but I'm trying not to be ashamed of them and see them as a reminder of where I have been and how far I have come on my journey since then. This week 6 years ago I got sent to a locked hospital in Mexborough for ladies with personality disorders because of the severity of my self harm and suicide attempts, the l...